Lamictal

Recently I had an online encounter with a with chick who wanted to get off. She had said that she was “lonely” and needed attention, as she wasn’t getting any from her husband.She came online to fool around. After a some introductory conversation, I learn a few thing about here.She says that she’s twenty-seven year old white female from New Jersey who’s husband works in another state.

 

We have chat session in which I direct her in how to pleasure herself. She then sends me an ivitation to view her webcam which shows a tight closeup of a white girl, slightly chubby with her fingers inside herself, rocking her hips back and fourth. I did not ask to see her pleasure herself, though I did enjoy it without a second thought. She leaves after climaxing. I leave her an offline message inviting her to keep in touch with me. Two days pass and I receive a request to add her to my list, Along with a message to me that she wishes for me to serve as her Master. Amused I accept her request. I also gave her the following task:

 

I want you to write me an email. In this letter you will tell me all about yourself. Even the things I already know. Your name. Age. Height. Weight breast size turn-ons, turn-offs, fetishes, limits. Desires, fantasies dark dreams. What you do for a living. What you studied in school. What goals do you have in life for yourself. What you feel is your best feature. Describe your personality. How often do you pleasure yourself? How do you normally dress. I want to know about you. The more I know, the more I can do with you.”

 

Now I use the “email task” as a way to tell if a submissive is serious. I’ve been disappointed often as for some reason most of the women I chat with can’t find it in themselves to write about themselves.

So I was pleasantly surprised to find a new letter in my inbox. Her letter is shown below, unedited.

 

Dear sir,

details of me.age 26 bra size 34b long blonde sometime i change colour of my hair. during normal day i dress casual, jean or T during summmer love white during day n darker dress during nite date. i ve been long term relationship since high school. what my bf doesnt knw is that i had sex with his friends also.until  1 day we brokeoff. reason his friend understand what i want , which lead me into havin 3sums..our relationship

last about few months. honest sometime i dont know why n what i really desire…until lately i am not the same ,,just like wearing a mask . 2 different person of me.innocent during day but not when i need sex. dark side>  i wish to wear a mask. havin sex with stranger. also bdsm excite me alot..as long no blood or 2 much force or pain.

guide me into orgasm is what i want….”

Now, I can forgive the poorly written letter, and the use of net-speak. However, after reading this short letter more than once, I became suspicious of this chick when in her fist line she says her age is twenty six, not twenty-seven as she said in your initial conversation. She also makes no mention of her husband in the letter. I decided I would wait until I had the chance to chat with her again so that I could as more question, as the letter she wrote did not touch on several things I asked about in my request.

Later that night upon noticing me online she immediately asks to help her get off.

Ignoring that I ask her more questions. I ask her where she’s from and she says Brooklyn where in our previous conversation she mentions New jersey. Already I’m not liking this. She goes on to say that her husband is overseas. I groan to myself knowing that this chick cannot keep her story straight. As she continues to insist that I her off stating a need to want to serve me, or so she says. Inspired I turn on my own webcam to show her who she’s chatting with, not putting on a show, just showing my face and proving to her that I’m a real person. She then turns on her webcam and it is another close up of a girl fingering herself. Only its not the same body I say from the other night, what’s more It appears that the webcam feed is looping. So, annoyed remind her that I did not give her permission to pleasure herself. I then told her to stop and to show me her face, at this point a feeling strongly that the webcam feed was in fact a video clip stream.

Without a word the webcam feed was terminated. We have not conversed since.

Looking back on the whole experience, its simply disappointing.

This “chick” is probably a guy looking to masturbate, often. Its really disappointing when someone has to deceive another. Having gone through it all too often, I tend to notice things that others may not pick up on. Being all too eager to turn on a web cam so show a close up of ones crotch, while being unable to show your face even wave hello, to me is a red flag. Now I can understand a hesitance to show one’s face, but if you’re going to be bold enough masturbate to anyone who wants to watch then then showing your face (even if you have to cover it by wearing sunglasses or similar) or being able to wave hello, or even write today’s date on a piece of paper shouldn’t be too difficult a request to grant to prove you’re an actual human.

Weather one goes online to connect with others, or use others as a means to an end, each of us has certain expectations that the person on the others side is at least in part what they say they are. Unless of course there’s some form of online roleplay, though I am not into that as I once was.

Its because I’m not into chat roleplay that I tend to look flaws, inconsistencies, defects, as it my desire to chat with those who are real, in that they are comfortable being themselves, without the need to deceive. So when I receive photos or a web cam feed I examine it. Things like lighting, background body shape, I pay attention to these things. Sometimes because of that, things come to an abrupt end. The best thing I can do is learn from each incident and move on.

Vigilance isn’t easy.

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